The Ugly Love of Monster Girls

That night we settled back onto the bed, the conversation still lingering in our minds. Nora shifted behind me, wrapping her arms around my waist as she pulled me against her. 

The warmth of her body seeped into mine, and slowly, I let out a breath I hadn’t realized I was holding.

Her hand slid up under my shirt, her palm warm against my stomach as her thumb dug into my stomach. "You don’t need to go," she whispered, her voice low and steady. "I’m here. You don’t need anything else."

I closed my eyes, trying to let her words soothe me, but the knot in my chest refused to loosen. "It’s not just that," I murmured, swallowing against the tightness in my throat. "I… I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this… I feel miserable. Doing nothing… worrying about mother and you. I don’t know how much longer I can handle it."

Her arms tightened slightly around me. "You’re still doing something," she insisted softly. "You’re here for me. You help me want to keep going each day, to keep working towards our future. You know that, don’t you?"

I wanted to just believe her. I wanted to let those words be enough, to be satisfied with them. But I couldn’t, when every day felt like I was slipping further and further into a lake I couldn’t crawl out of.

“I can’t keep living like this," I admitted, my voice barely above a whisper. "Every day feels like I’m sinking deeper. Mom’s in a hospital bed, Dorian’s gone, and I-" My throat tightened, cutting the words off. "I don’t know how to hold it all together. I don’t know how much longer I can sit here doing nothing."

Nora shifted behind me, her body tense as she pressed closer. Her breath was grazing warmly against my neck, but it couldn’t reach the cold sitting heavy inside me. 

For a while, she didn’t say anything, just held me there. Then, slowly, she guided me onto my back, leaning over me.

Her eyes met mine, searching. Like she was peeling me apart piece by piece. "Why are you thinking about this now?" 

Her fingers twitched against my side, but she didn’t pull away. "You have me," she said, quieter this time, but there was a tremor to her voice, one she couldn’t quite hide. "Isn’t that enough?"

"I don’t know," I choked out, the weight of the confession stealing the air from my lungs. "I want it to be. I wish it was. But it’s not, Nora." I squeezed my eyes shut, hating how weak I sounded. "I need to do something. I can’t stay… rotting like this. Otherwise…"

I didn’t finish. I couldn’t.

For a long, stretched moment, there was nothing but silence between us. Then I felt her fingers glide through my hair, slow and careful, as if I might break apart at any second.

"You won’t lose me," she promised, her voice soft but fierce. "I’ll always be here. No matter what happens."

"What if that’s not enough?" The question trembled in the air between us.

Her hand stilled, her gaze locked on mine. And for a moment, I thought she might answer, but she didn’t. She just looked at me, as if trying to understand something I couldn’t put into words.

"You’re everything I have," she whispered, and for the first time, her voice cracked. "If you go out there, if something happens, I can’t…" She broke off, swallowing the rest of the words like she couldn’t bear to say them.

I turned in her arms, facing her fully. My heart pounded harder at the sight of her. Eyes wide and glassy, her lips trembling even though she tried to keep herself calm. 

I hated seeing her like this. Hated that I was the one making her feel this way.

"I’m not leaving you," I said softly, brushing a stray lock of hair behind her ear. "I swear, Nora. I just… I need to be better. I need to be someone who can protect you, protect us. And if going to school is the only way I can do that…"

Her lips parted as if she wanted to argue. But she didn’t. She just stared at me, something fragile, her usual confidence faltering for a second.

Instead, she leaned in closer, resting her forehead against mine. For a moment, we just breathed, our warmth tangled together.

"I don’t like it," she finally murmured, her voice small in the dark. "But… I don’t want you to break, either. I lov- I consider you important, brother."

I could still feel her shaking, could still hear the strain in her voice. And part of me hated myself for pushing this far. For making her hurt like this.

"I’ll still be here," I promised again, softer this time. "I’m not going anywhere. No matter what happens."

For a long, stretched moment, she didn’t respond. The tremble in her breath was still there, but something else crept in, something sharper, more certain. Her grip tightened, and before I could process it, she shoved me back, hard enough that my shoulders hit the frame of the bed.

"Nora? Wh-" I started, my voice rough, but she didn’t let me finish. She closed the distance again, her body pressing into mine, pinning me there. Her forehead was still warm against mine, her antennas drooping over me like a mistletoe, as her lips hovered too close

"You don’t get it, do you, Markus?" she whispered, her voice low and edged with something I couldn’t name, anger, maybe, or desperation. 

Her hands slid higher, one tangling in my hair, tugging just enough to make me flinch. "You think you can keep promising me things, keep saying you’ll stay, like that fixes everything.

"I didn’t mean-" I tried, but she cut me off again, her fingers tightening in my hair, pulling my head back so I had to look at her. Her eyes were dark, glinting in the dim light, and that fragility I’d seen earlier was gone, replaced by something fierce, something that pinned me as much as her body did.

"Stop talking," she said, her tone soft but commanding, like she knew exactly how it’d hit me. 

She leaned in closer, her lips brushing the corner of my mouth, not a kiss, not yet, just a tease that sent a jolt through me. "You don’t get to decide what I feel. Not after everything. But you are going to make this right."

"Nora, what the hell-" I growled, shoving back against her, trying to break her hold. But she was stronger than I expected, her grip unyielding as she twisted her wrists free and pressed herself closer, pinning me with her body.

Her forehead crashed against mine again, harder this time, and I felt the heat of her breath spilling over my face, too close, too much.

"Don’t," she snapped, her voice low and fierce, cutting through my protest. Her hands gripped my shirt, yanking me toward her even as I tried to pull away, my shoulders straining against the bed. "You don’t get to walk away from this, Markus. Not after what you did."

"I’m not-" I started, pushing against her ample chest with both hands, trying to create space. She stumbled back slightly, but then surged forward again, her strength catching me off guard. 

One hand clamped around my throat, not choking, just holding me there and the other tangled in my hair, wrenching my head back so I had to meet her eyes. They were dark, burning, and I saw the fragility I’d glimpsed earlier swallowed by something raw and commanding.

"Stop fighting me," she hissed, her fingers tightening in my hair until I winced. Her body pressed harder against mine, her hips locking me in place, and I felt the sheer weight of her determination. 

My hands grabbed at her arms again, trying to pry her off, but she leaned in closer, her lips brushing my cheek, her breath hot and unsteady. "You think you can just promise me you’ll stay and that’s enough? After you broke me?"

My hands twitched at my sides, unsure whether to push her back or pull her closer. "Nora, I don’t-"

"You do," she murmured, her voice dipping into something almost tender, but laced with a thread of control. Her free hand slid down my chest, lingering at my waist, her touch light but forceful, like she was testing me. "You’ve always known how to fix things, Markus. You just don’t want to admit it." 

Her fingers dipped lower, brushing against me in a way that made my breath catch. As her antennas shimmered, shedding their dust into my face as I felt my resolve start to fray but not fully.

"This isn’t-" I tried again, weaker this time, my voice cracking as her hand pressed harder, more insistent. My body betrayed me, responding even as my mind screamed that this was wrong.

"Shh," she hushed me, her lips finally grazing mine, soft but unyielding. "You said you’re not going anywhere, right? Prove it." Her words were a trap, curling around me, and I couldn’t tell if it was a plea or a demand. Maybe both. Her hand moved again, coaxing, and I felt the heat of her against me, her body shifting so she was straddling my thigh, her weight pinning me further.

"Nora, wait-" My protest was halt, swallowed by the way she kissed me then, full and forceful. Her teeth grazing my lip just enough to sting. 

My hands landed on her hips instinctively, gripping her, but I didn’t push her away. I couldn’t. She knew me too well, knew the guilt I carried, knew how to twist it into something I couldn’t fight.

"I can’t wait," she breathed against my mouth, her voice trembling again, but this time it felt like a performance, a lure. 

"You owe me this, Markus. You broke my trust before, now give me something back." She said as her hands were everywhere now, tugging at my shirt, sliding under it, her nails dragging lightly across my skin. "I need you. You’re my brother, don’t make me beg for this too."

The word brother hit me like a punch, but she didn’t stop, didn’t let me pull away. She rocked against me, her movements slow and deliberate, and I felt myself slipping, caught in the web of her words, her touch. 

"You won’t break me," she whispered, her lips brushing my ear now, her voice a soft, dangerous promise. "Not if you do this right. Just… let me have you. Let me feel you’re still mine." Her hands were on me, her breath hot against my neck, “Mmm~ Markus” she murmured my name like it was a plea. My resistance crumbled, piece by piece, and as she pushed me further

Her words trickled into my ear, a venomous whisper that coiled around me, and my hands faltered, slipping from her shoulders to hang useless at my sides. She pressed herself tighter, her breasts soft and heavy against my chest, her nipples hard through the thin fabric of her white sundress.

The bed clawed into my back as she ground her hips into me, her pussy straddling my thigh with a slow, deliberate roll. 

"Don’t bother fighting, brother," she murmured, her voice a velvet blade, and when I looked at her, her lips curled into a sinister smile, sharp, gleaming, the kind that promised pain wrapped in pleasure. 

"You’re only mine to play with." Her fingers yanked my head back, exposing my throat, and she leaned in, her tongue flicking over my pulse before her teeth grazed it, a warning bite that made me jerk uselessly against her grip.

I tried to speak, but the words stop leaving my throat. I twisted my arm, but she twisted back harder, her strength a vice, pinning me like a doll in her hands. Her free hand slid down, nails scraping my chest, circling my nipples with a slow, taunting precision that made me hiss.

Then lower, tugging my jeans open with a flick, her fingers wrapping around my cock, already half-hard, squeezing until my breath caught. 

"Want me to stop?" she mocked, her smile widening, eyes glinting with dark delight as she stroked me, slow and firm, her thumb smearing over the tip just to watch me squirm. "Look at you, so cute, twitching already. My big brother. ♡"

Her thighs shifted, and before I could sense it. She moved swiftly, straddling me with a hungering grace. Her knees pinned me deeper into the mattress, and I felt her pussy, hot, bare. Her clothes shoved aside as she began to brush against my cock, still exposed from her earlier torment. 

She reached down, her hand wrapping around me, fingers cold and firm as she stroked once, twice, coaxing me back to hardness with a cruel, knowing smirk. "Look at you," she taunted, guiding my tip to her entrance, "still ready for me, even when you hate it."

She rocked her hips again, grinding her pussy harder against my dick, the damp heat dripping down over it, and I couldn’t move, couldn’t do anything but feel her control me, piece by piece.

Her breasts pressed harder, deliberate. I opened my mouth to protest, but she sank down, forcing my cock into her pussy in one slow, deliberate slide. She was tight, slick, her walls gripping me as she took me in, inch by inch, until her hips pressed flush against mine, pinning my hips to the bed with her weight. 

She tugged my shirt up, exposing me, and her nails raked over my stomach, leaving red trails as she hummed, pleased with her work. "Remember last time?" she purred, leaning in to nip my jaw, her breath hot and mocking. "You cried, didn’t you? Begged me to stop, but you came anyway. My sweet, broken brother."

I had no idea what she meant, but the idea made my stomach twist, sick and shameful. That she’d done this before, that it wasn’t our first time. I wasn’t sure whether she was playing her tricks again, but it made my body coil nonetheless.

Her pussy ground down harder, her thighs clamping around mine, and she tilted her head back, letting out a soft, exaggerated moan, playing with me, reveling in it. "Anyways~ I can’t wait for our kids!" She said, her voice dipping into a manic glee as her eyes locked on mine, watching my horror bloom.

"Little dolls of our own, Markus. I’d dress them up, playing with them with you. Wouldn’t that be precious?" Her smile stretched, predatory, and I wanted to retch, but my body betrayed me, hips jerking into her hand as she just smiled in pleasure.

"Please," I managed to choke, my voice a broken plea, but she only leaned in, her lips brushing mine, teasing, before she kissed me. Slow, possessive, her tongue sliding in to claim me as her fingers worked me faster.

Her nipples grazed my chest, her pussy rocked against me, and I was nothing. Just a thing she played with, her doll to bend and break. "That’s it," she whispered against my mouth, her smile pressing into me as she felt me unravel. "Show me, Markus. Show me how pretty you are when you’re mine."

Her hand twisted, her grip relentless, and I couldn’t stop it, the heat, the shame, the way she owned me. My cry was ragged, swallowed by her kiss as I came, spilling into her womb, and she kept going, milking every shudder, every twitch, her smile never faltering. 

I could feel it, each spurt drop by drop sowing into her. And when I slumped, limp and trembling, she held me there, her body still pressed to mine, her fingers tracing my jaw like I was a toy she’d finished with… for now.

"Perfect," she murmured, her sinister grin glowing in the dark as she tilted my head up, forcing me to meet her gaze. "My big brother. Always mine." And as I stared into her eyes, hollowed out and helpless, I knew, that she meant all of it.

I groaned, sick and broken, spilling into her as she kissed me through it, her smile pressed to my lips, her tongue claiming every sound. When I slumped, spent and shaking, she stayed straddled over me, my cock still buried in her dripping pussy, her fingers petting my hair

But then, something flickered. Her grip loosened, just a fraction, and her eyes, so sharp and triumphant a moment ago, widened, glistening with something unsteady. Her smile faltered, twitching at the edges, and before I could process it, her face crumpled.

A sob tearing from her throat, her eyes inches away from mine. Raw, ugly, uncontrollable. "I-I’m sorry," she choked out, her words tumbling over each other as she clutched at her chest, nails digging into her own skin like she was trying to hold herself together.

I couldn’t move, couldn’t speak. My body was still pressed against the wall, my jeans open, my chest bare where she’d clawed me, and I just stared, lungs tight, as she unraveled. Her sobs grew louder, wrenching, and she pressed harder, throwing her arms around me, her face burying into my neck.

"I’m so sorry," she wailed, her voice muffled against me, thick with mucus and despair. "I didn’t mean-please, Markus, don’t hate me. I can’t-" Another sob cut her off, her body shaking so hard I could feel it in my bones, and she tightened her hold, her nails biting into me as if I might slip away. "I can’t live without you. Don’t leave me, please, don’t leave me… I need you, I need you so much-"

Her tears soaked through my shirt, her apologies a frantic stream as she pressed herself closer, her breasts squashing against me, her hips still slotted against mine from before. She slid down slightly, her knees buckling, and she gripped my waist, hugging me tighter, her face pressed to my chest now, sobbing into the fabric. "I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so fucked up, I know I am, but I don’t want you to go- don’t leave me alone, Markus, I’ll die without you, I swear I will-"

Her words dissolved into incoherent cries, her body wracked with tremors, and she sank lower, clutching at my legs now, her cheek against my thigh as she begged, her tears dripping onto my skin. "Please," she whimpered, barely audible between sobs, "say you won’t leave me. Say you still love me. I can’t-I can’t do this without you-"

I lay there, frozen, my throat locked tight. Her hair tangled around my fingers where she’d pulled me earlier, her scent still clinging to me, and I couldn’t utter a single word.

She sobbed harder at my silence, her arms wrapping around my knees now, holding on like I was the only thing keeping her from falling apart completely, and all I could do was stand there, pinned by her despair, as mute and broken as she’d left me.

~~~

The next morning felt strangely heavy. Last night’s events felt clouded in my mind, as if hidden in a mystic shroud. I stood in front of the mirror, toothbrush lazily hanging from my mouth as I tried to fix my mess of hair. The reflection staring back at me felt… off. 

My face looked the same. Same tired eyes, same average build, same messy strands that refused to sit neatly no matter how much I tried to flatten them down. But something deeper had shifted.

I rinsed my mouth and wiped my face dry, dragging out every second as if that might delay the inevitable. My hands moved on their own, tugging the crisp new uniform over my head. The shirt snugly fit on my shoulders, the tie hanging a little too loose, but it fit. It was real.

I exhaled, stepping back to take myself in.

This is really happening.

A part of me wanted to believe this was normal, like I was just any other guy about to start school. But nothing about my life was normal. This wasn’t some simple coming-of-age moment. I wasn’t some carefree teenager worrying about grades and friends.

Still, the anxiety gnawed at me. What was school even like in this world? Was it like the memories I barely held onto? Or was I walking into something completely unknown? New faces, new routines, I didn’t know how I’d fit in. If I could fit in.

I adjusted my tie again, forcing a breath through my nose. "You can do this," I muttered under my breath. "You have to."

A sudden warmth curled around my waist, pulling me back before I could react. Soft fingers pressed into my stomach as a familiar weight leaned against me.

“You clean up pretty nicely,” Nora’s voice purred softly against my ear. “Didn’t think you’d look this good in a uniform… but I like it.”

I rolled my eyes, trying to ignore the heat crawling up my neck. “It’s nothing special,” I said, brushing off the compliment

“Oh?” Her grip tightened playfully. “Nothing special, huh?”

Before I could respond, her fingers darted under my blazer, teasing at my sides. The sensation shot through me like lightning.

“H-Hey!” I tried to protest, but a helpless laugh spilled from my throat as her hands roamed mercilessly.

“You’re so tense," she giggled softly, her fingers dancing with practiced ease along my ribs. “Is this where you’re ticklish? Or… maybe here?” Her hands slid lower, testing different spots while I squirmed against her grip.

“N-Nora! Quit it!” My laughter broke through in uneven gasps as I twisted in her hold, but she only pressed herself closer.

“You’re laughing, must mean I’m doing something right.” Her voice grew softer, sweeter, as she tucked her face against the curve of my neck. I could feel her breath, warm and steady, brushing against my skin.

For a moment, her hands slowed, but she didn’t pull away. Her face stayed there, as her breathing grew heady for a second. 

“Feels like you’re about to leave me behind,” she murmured, her voice barely above a whisper. 

I swallowed hard, unsure how to respond. But without thinking, my hands drifted over hers, squeezing gently. "I couldn’t forget you if I tried," I said quietly, and I meant it.

Nora nestled her face closer. For a moment, she didn’t say anything—just held me like she was afraid I might slip away. Then, her voice softened into something more serious.

“You… put on the inhibitors, right?” she asked, her tone light but with an edge underneath. “You can’t forget them. Ever. You know that.”

I felt her fingers curl slightly against my waist, the playful warmth from earlier shifting into something anxious.

“I did,” I murmured, giving a slow nod. “I’m wearing them, promise.”

She didn’t pull away. If anything, she held on tighter. “Markus… I mean it,” she pressed, her voice dipping lower. “You can’t ever go outside without them. Not even once.”

“I know,” I tried to soothe her, though my heart thudded a little harder against my ribs. “I’ll be fine, Nora. You don’t have to worry so much.”

Nora finally eased her grip, but only just. Her chin rested against my shoulder, her voice soft and close, like she didn’t want to let even the air between us.

“Just… be careful, okay?” she murmured, brushing her fingers along my waist in slow rolls. “You don’t know what kind of people you’ll run into out there. Strangers can be… unpredictable.”

They’ll try to take you away.

I swallowed against the sudden tightness in my throat. “I get it, Nora. I’ll be careful.”

Her fingers tightened just a little. “I’m serious,” she pressed, her tone still light but the weight beneath it unmistakable. “You don’t owe anyone anything, so don’t feel like you have to be nice or get too close to people. It’s better if you… keep your distance.”

Stay away from any other girl.

I tried to laugh it off, shifting slightly against her. “I’m not exactly planning on making a bunch of friends,” I said, attempting a weak smile in the mirror. “I’m just going to school, not starting a fan club.”

“You say that now,” she sighed softly, her face still nestled against my neck. “But people are nosy. They’ll want to know you.”

They’ll want to take you away from me.

I felt a faint shiver crawl down my spine. There was no teasing tone to her words anymore.

Her fingers curled tighter against my waist, pulling me closer. “I don’t care what you think,” she whispered, her breath brushing against my skin. Don’t let anyone get too close. Okay?”

I won’t forgive you if you do.

I nodded slowly, more to reassure her than myself. “I’ll be fine, Nora.”

Her grip didn’t loosen. Instead, she buried herself deeper against my back, as if trying to keep me there forever.

“I’m always going to worry,” she whispered, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. “Because you’re mine.”

I exhaled softly, lifting one of my hands to rest over hers again. "I’m not going anywhere," I promised, though the weight of her words clung to me. "I’ll be fine. I’ll come back to you."

For a moment, she didn’t say anything. Then, softly, so softly I almost didn’t hear it, she murmured. “I’m trusting you.”

And somehow, that felt heavier than anything else.