I Have Yet to Become a Doll Today

Chapter 938: Chapter 938: In a Dilemma

“Don’t want people to know, so that’s why you refused to meet with Asarina?” Shen Mo felt very uncomfortable inside, wanted to give her a harsh scolding, yet couldn’t bear to.

“I won’t leave.” He sighed, embracing her, “What exactly are you worried about?”

Bai Youwei let him hold her, her expression lost, “I don’t know… I don’t know why I can’t stand up…”

Maybe deep down she still feared that once people knew the ugliness inside her heart, she would lose everything she had—friendship, love, trust, and support, all disappearing!

Including Shen Mo holding her tight at this moment, what was he really thinking?

Was there really no grudge?

Even if he knew that she once did not want the world to return to normal, that wouldn’t matter?

Bai Youwei clutched the clothes on Shen Mo’s back tightly, feeling a heaviness in her heart, sinking continuously.

She didn’t dare to think, what if everyone around her left, what should she do? Return to the lonely days of the past, eating alone, sleeping alone, watching the sun rise and set by herself? Even if she won in the end, what would it matter?

She was too scared…

Scared to the extreme!

Bai Youwei closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and finally realized how low and ludicrous she was!

Even though she told herself thousands of times to trust Shen Mo! To trust that even if he heard the recording, he wouldn’t hate her, disdain her, leave her! But she just couldn’t stand up!

She couldn’t stand up!

She couldn’t overcome the demons in her heart! Even if on the surface she pretended to be nonchalant, her despicable heart still tried to use her broken legs to bind Shen Mo! To not let him leave her!

Bai Youwei bit her lip tightly, suppressing the dull pain in her chest, and at this moment, she felt utterly defeated!

“It will get better.” Shen Mo gently patted her back, sighing, “We’ll take it slow, it will get better.”

“Mhm…” She took a deep breath, striving to steady her emotions, not to let self-pity defeat her.

Shen Mo said, “Continuing to hide it isn’t a solution, I’ll go get a wheelchair.”

Bai Youwei clung to him, “If people find out, recruitment will become even more difficult…”

Shen Mo frowned, “We can’t hide it for much longer.”

“I just haven’t adjusted my mindset yet, give me some more time…” Bai Youwei bit her lip and said softly, pleading in her tone, “Just give me a little more time, my legs will recover… They definitely can.”

Shen Mo was torn.

The recruitment of subjects was not going smoothly, and if people learned that the King’s legs were paralyzed, it would only make it harder to recruit subjects.

He deliberated for a moment and said, “We still need to keep a wheelchair at home, you rest first, I’ll go talk to Teacher Cheng and Xiaoxin.”

Bai Youwei let go of him.

He stood up to leave, and Bai Youwei, watching his retreating figure, felt an inexplicable panic and hurriedly called out to him, “Shen Mo.”

Shen Mo turned back, his eyebrows slightly furrowed.

Bai Youwei hesitated for two seconds and asked, “Do… Do you really want to go to Beijing with me?”

She gazed at him eagerly, not waiting for Shen Mo to answer, she continued, “About the recording… it was, it was out of context, that’s not what I meant… Do you believe me?”

“Mhm.” Shen Mo’s brows smoothed, his gaze softened, “I believe you. Now I’ll go find Teacher Cheng and Xiaoxin, you rest well and try to recover sooner.”

Bai Youwei looked at him, and somehow, she felt like laughing and crying at the same time. In the end, she just nodded dumbly and said, “Okay…”

…

In the research group in the city center, Li Li received a notification from the receptionist assistant that Su Man wanted to see him.

The colleagues in the lab teased him, “Li Li, your childhood sweetheart is here!”

Li Li put on an impatient expression but inside felt somewhat proud; since their last argument, Su Man had finally come to him on her own initiative.

“She’s really annoying, always acts however she pleases, I’ve told her countless times, the lab isn’t a place anyone can just enter!” Li Li walked toward the door.